intro to SLOW

SLOW
day one:
such a good day. seeing everyone again has been so amazing. heather and i are in love with our apartment (kasey's old one... so ironic. haha) and keep exclaiming over how much space we have. in comparison to our old northwest room, this is ridiculous. heather is in love with my mom for all of the stuff she sent up for us. we won't have to buy hardly anything!
the girls who lived here last year left it completely furnished, but had labeled everything, meaning we couldn't use it. thus trying to move our own stuff in was really difficult and cramped. i was so annoyed... so we just moved it all out into the stairwell and decided the girls can pick it up there. haha. two couches, three tables, two TVs, six chairs, three bookshelves, and a plant is a bit much for me to handle. haha.
almost everyone has moved in to the hall. i think it's going to be an interesting year. haha. there's me and heather, across the hall is evan, sam, and jared, down from them is rob, jake, dan, and andrew (that will be the cause of a lot of drama, i'm thinking), and across from them is heidi and chelsey.

day two:
after worship i went to the TWUSA meeting... and it was actually very refreshing. i didn't really have a very distinct idea of what TWUSA was before and didn't even know why they were there, how they worked, etc. so it was nice to have this opportunity of a glimps into their inner workings. i think i'm going to be spending the majority of the week working on the Reel, though. and maybe just having some quiet times to myself to focus and figure out God's vision for this year and the Reel.

Jamie out.

back in canada

horrible day yesterday.
today has been pretty wonderful. i love driving, even driving for six hours straight. it's pretty wonderful. i also love the area around my school, especially in the summer time. it's so gorgeous and feels like home.
[my parents are currently having a discussion about the soft vs. firm pillows on their hotel bed. i love my family.]

i took my parents to my favourite sushi restaurant tonight. Sumo Sushi. pretty wonderful + pretty cheep = pretty amazing. i might take them to boston pizza tomorrow and force them to experience a chocolate explosion. excuse the expression, but it's pretty much an orgasm in your mouth. i won't be describing it this way to my mother.

so excited to move in tomorrow and see everyone!!

Jamie out.

PS. Kasey, i love your blog entries. =P

August is over

so much less confusion and so much more closure.
saw quenton tarantino's new film, inglorious basterds. love him. he's such a sick and twisted bastard. but watching people get scalped is not my favourite passtime, don't worry.
said an official goodbye to robbie. talked about some things. i'm so much less overwhelmed, and at least i was slightly prepared this time around, not swooped upon. i hate goodbyes. there are far too many of them in my life. maybe God is trying to teach me something...
of course He is. what am i saying?

Jamie out.

Say a prayer
The summer nights are dead
The fall is coming
We were careless hearts
Who got caught up in this
You were shy
To the night you drove me wild
And you crashed into me
And I won't lie
I wish it lasted a lifetime
No wait
Cause August had to end
All our bags are packed
Just two broken hearts
That got caught up in this
I deny
That tomorrow you'll be gone
And so far from me
It's something strange
Never love the same way

Breathe in deep
And say goodbye
The saddest song
I'll ever write
For anyone, anytime

Breathe in deep
Before I say
I can feel us slip away
You're almost gone
You're good as gone
August is over

[[We The Kings]]

well...

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

[[fergie]]

even online...

Tasha says (3:17 PM):
oo oo, i could rent it sometime this school year... then we could have a movie watching date!
jame[s] says (3:17 PM):
k well this year we will have to get movies and watch them together while skyping/msning


...i love us.

Jamie out.

consumerism

my mommy bought me american eagle today. =D there's a first for everything, might as well experience it at 21 instead of 16.
also, she purchased a new digital camera and is wandering around the house photographing things. so precious. she will now get a taste of my obsession.

my room continues to be a disaster zone. only half of my bookshelf is packed for the move. the rest is coughed up all over the floor. i could host my own garage sale if i ever felt the need to remove everything i own from my life.

tonight i'm going to see G.I. Joe. i'm a little bit stoked. and news beyond news, i'm going to see it with a boy named michael, not robbie. let's hope there isn't a smack down in the theatre when he finds out.

my enterprise rental car is a Nisan something or another. i don't like it. it drives weird and there aren't enough secret compartments. but maybe the CD player will work. that would be nice.

two more theatre shifts and i am done with that hell hole! hallelujah!
i miss my managers who got fired though. =[

Jamie out.

Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

[[Lifehouse]]

mmph

my mom pretty much asked me if i'm pregnant today.
thanks mom. thanks for that vote of confidence.
i haven't even held hands with the boy.

day number three of the worst period of my life...

Jamie out.

thought

"from everyone who has been given much, much will be required."
Be faithful now over the situation you have been given. Walk with God through it. God wants you there. God does not reward greatness. He rewards faithfulness.

"See that you do not look down on one of these little ones. For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my Father in heaven.
"What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost." -Matt 18:10-14

Jamie out.

bonn appetite!

Julie and Julia:
i am torn. on one hand, it was incredibly cute, and julia seems like a wonderfully inspirational person who loves life. on the other hand, the editing was so loose i wanted to claw my eyeballs out and i couldn't sit still almost the entire movie. this is not a side effect of Aunt Flow (riding the crimson wave, or whatever code name you want to use), but of boredom. that being said, i loved the characters, it made me want to eat despite my nausea, and Paris seems like the perfect place for me to live. forget about canada, seattle, and any other place planned for my future. i'm going to move to paris with my short, politician of a husband and become a chef.

plans for the rest of the day:
clean my room. it is easily reminiscent of the aftermath of hiroshima and might take just as long to clean up.
seeing Funny People with robbie later.
i've heard it's not very funny.
ironic.

Jamie out.

just for you

estimate

since i am too sick to work, i may as well update.
also, how bubble spinner is not affecting my vertigo, i have no idea. maybe in my desperation for quiet entertainment my body is willing to accommodate some things.

took Baby in to get her estimate today. just shy of $1000. thank the Lord i'm not liable. their insurance pays for everything, including my rental car. it's going to take four days to fix her--taking her in on monday and will get her back two days before i leave for school. good timing? debatable.

comprehensible thoughts are leaving me.
Jamie out.

one last adventure

the past couple days have been quite great, even though i spent way too much money.
after work on sunday--where i got to be on till, eat a bunch of pretzel bites we had to waste, and distract coworkers with my "cuteness" (apparently)--tasha drove down for a couple days.

hightlights:
1. sleeping at the house i'm watching and being eaten alive by jasper and murphy, the most massive dogs i have ever seen in my life.
2. forever 21
3. my new mr. coffee for all those late nights up at school.
4. district 9 with steinkamp and then running around work trying to find jumper cables because his scooter wouldn't start. yes, he has a scooter.
5. running around portland today, where we hit pioneer mall, powell's, pita pit, pioneer square, the keller fountain, and voodoo doughnuts. walked about fifteen miles in over 90 degree heat.

love.
also, tasha and i accidentally wore the same clothes pretty much the entire time. we need to stop shopping together. and having the same favourite colors.
and that's the last we'll see of each other for a year.
people need to stop moving.

Jamie out.

targets and dreams

apparently
my car has a very large target on it.
i nearly got run into twice on my way home from work today.
also, tash is coming tonight for one last visit before our year apart. =[
steinkamp and robbie are planning all sorts of adventures for us.
well... actually, they're attending the adventures tash and i decide on.

i had a fabulously ridiculous dream last night. brian had decided to make robbie jealous, so he jumped me. chris larsen then sat down next to us and said that i looked really disgusted. hahaaaa.
i think i have been spending far too much time at work.

Jamie out.

my luck is astounding

*exit from shower*
Mikaela: "Jamie, your mom needs you. Someone ran into your car."
Me: "... Fuck." i hate garage sales.

Baby is okay. he just scratched the paint. and he was a cute old man. but still. =[
also, verizon is a rip off. staying with t-mobile and the pre-paid plan while i'm in canada. but certain people will need to stop texting me 50 thousand times a day.

fourteen days until departure.

Jamie out.

sad face

"sing like you think no one's listening
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would
you would"

my FM transmitter is PMSing today. coincidence? i think not.

there is a reason why the past two summers i didn't let myself make new friends, or meet boys. it just makes it that much more difficult to leave.
starting to shut myself down and pull away from people. good or bad thing?
i love them, but i leave in fifteen days, for life.
and some of them just aren't understanding what this transition is going to mean, which makes it that much more difficult.

Jamie out.

Target

purchased:
make-up
larger CD/DVD case
4 GB usb drive
rechargeable AAA batteries
17 Again

all crucial for my survival this year at university.
now off to hand in my two weeks notice.
hello fourth year, what's up?

Jamie out.

hello

blog = for sister.

intro.
my name is jamie. i currently work at a movie theatre with very wonderful people and very horrible customers, as well as poppers that injure me daily.
my parents are moving to san diego so when i leave for school in two weeks, i won't have a home any more.
my sister and her husband are on a plane to london at the moment, and from there they will be flying to israel for their two year adventure.

intro done.
kasey, you alread knew all of that. ;]

i just got back from RVing with tasha's family. i feel very healthy after spending three days eating organic food and zero caffeine. if only i had the self control to stay away from coffee indefinitely. also, i think my future husband should consider investing in a dune buggy. i have no interest in driving one, just being the over-enthusiastic passenger.

in other news, i have been feeling very discouraged and mediocre lately. not good. time to do something i know i'm good at. DUTCH BLITZ!

Jamie out.