rant much?

robbie and i talked for the first time in three weeks. i took away his hope/he no longer thinks we will get together. but he basically told me he loved me. aaah! but it's donezo now, officially in the ground.

all of my classes right now tie together very well. the speaker in chapel today was barry taylor--he used to do the sound for U2. i love his brain. he has a doctorate in postmodern theology or something like that. he came to my COMM 411 class and we just had a class discussion and it was really fascinating. he has a very postmodern view on the approach to the Bible and the church, but i agreed with a lot of his opinions and just found him really interesting. like in chapel he was sort of talking about diversity in the text or diversity in interpretations of the text and we need to be open to that and realize that through human error we will never be able to fully realize the universal and ultimate truth of God. people are different, people have different opinions, and everyone's faith is their own. sometimes i get irritated with individuality but the reality is that is the current worldview and i can't escape that, and thus i'm going to read the Bible in a much different way from when it was actually written.
but THEN in the last FIVE MINUTES of class he says, "but the gospel, or rather gospelS are not about Jesus Christ's saving grace but of the renewal and betterment of mankind." i was just like... WTF you can't just say something like that and then WOOPS class is over. EXPLAIN YOURSELF!! haha.
in ned's class we were talking about how everything we do is about seeking something better. the better boyfriend, better job, better grade, better self. i feel like all of my classes are tying together this semester. and i think it can be said that the gospel is about that in some way--renewal and betterment--but i don't think that it can be said that's more prominent than Jesus. i mean, i think that's a main part of Jesus' message/goal, but primary focus? huge.

oh oh oh! also! about my IDIS class!! people are so concerned with unity that they don't accept diversity and reject dialogue with it. that's what bothers me about the idea of globalization. within the realm of human error, it isn't possible. thus striving for unity isn't a bad thing, but you have to realize that it just isn't possible in this world. that's why i think that christians have a bias towards globalizatoin--they're so determined to find a unity and portray their idea of universal truth in all areas. they deny the fact that they're influenced by postmodernism and secular humanism--they declare their own denominations as truth and in a sense deny the existence of diversities. in light of human error, no one has the truth and no one has the ability to bring about this globalization in a healthy way.
ugh and how my prof talks about technology! it kills me! a guy in my film book said this: "I don't think a filmmaker can afford to be afraid of technology... [I]t's really an extension of our bodies and our minds into the universe which then comes back to change us." i fricken love this book--it's amazing, the way it talks about film as an art form and further learning how to do a critical analysis. amazing! and dr. goheen is just going on about the negative aspects of technology... when everything we are surrounded by is technology! paper is technology! i understand that there are limits and we shouldn't let our lives become dependent on them, of course. but being a filmmaker, it breaks my heart a little bit when people bash on it as if it were the anti-christ.

anyways, rant over for the night.
love you all.
Jamie out.

still alive

really really quick update:
1. i have an intense amount of homework the next couple weeks. kasey, if you see me online, tell me to stop procrastinating, because i probably will be. this on top of the Reel... craziness.
2. i "broke up" with robbie on monday. i also told him we couldn't talk for several weeks, because he did the typical boy thing and refused to accept that we're never going to date/see each other again.
3. no matter what i do, i keep losing weight.
4. 49ers are 3-1-0. today they won 35-0 against the rams. =D

that's all for now. miss! love!

Jamie out.