i was very overwhelmed yesterday. i'm not quite sure what it was... probably the culmination of everything from this week. robbie, moving, cluttered apartment (so so disgusting), finally working seriously on the Reel... omg the Reel. i am incredibly excited and so blessed but i can't help but wonder what God was thinking! i've never even been involved with this before, i don't know how to do half of anything! i'm messaging musicians and hoping they'll respond. God let them respond. i have to take the camera into van to get it cleaned and get the sound checked out, but if it's crap i'm going to have to push twusa to buy a new camera. yey.... =/ i don't know the password to get onto the Reel computer so thus far all i have done is charge batteries. i don't know how to access my budget or even what it is, but i obviously need to start spending it soon since i need tapes and have to pay to clean the camera, etc. do i compensate the musicians? i don't know! when do i need to meet with my minions and what do i say to them? i have a list in my office of everything i need to do and it fills the entire whiteboard. i've thought of several more things. this is madness.
i think i'm still overwhelmed today.
i was pretty much having an anxiety attack yesterday so i sat down with my Bible to read, and then went into my room and fell asleep while i was praying.
i just need to keep busy so that i don't think about how freaking overwhelming this is. amazing! but i don't know what the crap i'm doing, and that scares me shitless.
Jamie out.
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